After struggling for years of bouts of anxiety and depression, a self described people pleaser and perfectionist Alanis Morissette said she suppressed her feelings of anger and despair soothing herself with eating disorders, addictions, work and love.
Alanis admits to Oprah in her recent appearance on Super Soul Sunday that she had a challenging time dealing with both her eating disorders aneroxia and bulimia (yes, you can have both at once). From those experiences she made a profound analogy and statement to Ms. Harpo saying it taught her that;
Women were and still are reduced to objects in a lot of ways, they are sexual pieces of meat to be direct about it. Why I love being percieved as the angry white female on the cover of Rollingstone was because well atleast I am not being percieved as just a sex piece of meat, that’s great…thats an angry woman, atleast a thinking woman. An angry woman is responding to whats going on in the culture around you. And eating disorders for me, food was such ana amazing way for me to calm my anxiety too.. it still is, food, work, and love addiction for a long time.
Now happily married, there was a time that only food seemed to comfort the pain of Alanis heart break. In 2008, Alanis split with then boyfriend Ryan Reynolds and gained what looked like 30 plus pounds or more. The following year she turned to working out and cut out processed and dairy foods, and even started on a vegan diet after reading Dr. Fuhrman’s book “Eat to live”.
Journaling thru it all also seemed to help this musician, as past entries can still be found on her blog on ivillage.com, which include snippets like this one making reference to her food related disorders;
‘Being kind toward my fragility in the face of a monolithic message of perfectionism and intolerance has not been an easy path – nor, I’m ashamed to say, a consistent one. Writing about it helps.’
Alanis has found a new sense of self after giving birth to her son. Even though she still has wounds from the past that she is working thru in therapy, aneroxia and bulimia are no longer one of them.